I wrote the poem at the end of this post just over 10 months ago not knowing how my life would unfold, only knowing I was being called to become involved in the healing arts and mental health communities (& the photo above was taken on the day ‘I decided’ as well). I’m now confident enough to say, “I am working to change the world.” I was too scared I didn’t matter all that much, too scared of failing to dream too big, and that it would be too prideful to even think I could change the world let alone to speak it out loud.
Now I am certain I can change the world. At what level is yet to be determined. I might die trying but we’re all gonna die sooner or later so why not die building the life of our dreams? I know I can’t do it on my own – that is why I launched TKCdreams & I am working to find and support others who have a desire to heal, grow & thrive in community; to transform their own lives and build the life of their dreams, the life of our dreams — a ‘TKCdreams Team.’
‘To change the world, start with one step’ (borrowing from DMB). I’ve taken the first step, I’ve taken hundreds, thousands of steps to build the life I am living at present, cultivating a mindset of positivity & possibility grounded in planning & acting and doing my best to stop the wanting & wishing that kept me stuck in unhealthy ways of being & relating. I’m far from perfect, I still have bad days.
We all have our demons, we need to make friends with them at a certain level. I’ve learned not to fall into the melodrama of my emotions and to let them run their course ‘on the side’ or in the background but to stay the course, keep moving in the direction I want to go. Usually these dark feelings are fleeting and only visit maybe a day or two each month. Pretty sure my monthly hormone cycle lends itself to a demon or two popping up monthly.
The good news is that as I continue along my journey from heartbreak to joy and connect to the wisdom within, a ‘magical, mythical map’ materializes, leading me to the life of my dreams. Little by little at first. I feel like maybe an avalanche is coming, maybe a landslide. Will I be tested? Can I handle the ‘seasons of my life’ (borrowing from Stevie Nicks)? I feel stronger and more at peace than I ever have but at the same time I feel more vulnerable and there is still doubt and fear that comes and goes.
But I have decided and I have no desire to go back to a well-trodden path. I don’t mind starting a business from bare bones, I don’t mind being cut to the core. Both provide the opportunity to ‘sing back’ the world, my life without the lies.
Let’s do this – let’s build the world of our dreams together!
Lucky Day
9-18-2023
The day I decided — it’s my lucky day!
I will no longer
neglect
my creative
life
I will no longer
pretend
to be
placated
by a paycheck
by a world
that tells me
I am
not enough
and
too much
I will create a new world
with others
with new ways of being
with new ways of relating
starting today
starting yesterday
I have been working on
this world
for over a decade
Building strength
Confidence
Determination
Inspiration
#TKCdreams
Let’s do this together
Let’s become the peeps
we are meant
to be,
do the work
we were born
to do,
and take time
to enjoy the beauty
of the
natural world
Come along with me
Community
Connection
This is where
we are supposed
to be
In communion
with other souls
Uplifting one another
Causing as little harm as possible
Loving as much as possible
So simple
but not easy
Let’s build the life of our dreams
Together
Based on the belief that
‘You are me and I am you’
We are all connected and my fate is tied to yours
– C. Joyce
Namaste my friends. Shaka vibes & healing energy to all.
XO